After a six week hiatus, I am dipping my toe back into the blogosphere. Summer has been exhausting and rewarding, and it had me explore my edges by pushing me way past my comfort zone,
As I emerge, I'm still feeling a bit raw and tender but also cleansed and purified.
Eclipse season had me working my tail off, it pushed me to really sink into my 2018 word of SUPPORT. I was forced to practice asking and receiving. I had to hone my communication skills, draw on my experience, set limits for my kids, and of course, allow myself to take a break.
In January, I had an identity crisis and I feel like I am weathering another one. What I am realizing this time is that the older we get, life stops giving us the leeway we are accustomed to. We are guided to discern what truly upholds and affirms our core beliefs. Who are the people meant to come into (and more often out of) our lives to help us realize what we are destined to create?
For me, this is always the fringe dwellers and outsiders. Those with unwavering integrity that will not sacrifice any part of who they are for a false sense of belonging. We are the ones that always feel like we are missing something because we are unable to sell ourselves out to conform.
I am having to learn to let down the walls to build a variety of relationships, not just the intimate core deep friendships that are so difficult to maintain when life picks up speed. That there is space for meaningful heart-led connections but that there's also space for strategic leveraged relationships, especially in business. We need both.
On this Virgo new moon, I am left contemplating the continued evolution of who I am, how I show up, the connections and people I admire, recognizing my limits, where and when to pull back, and how it all weaves together.
Here is the mantra for this new moon:
Sacredness is held within the mundane moments
Within the ability to advocate for and support myself.
It's held in the moments of clarity, rest, saying no, and saying yes.
It is in the courage to choose me,
And in the radical knowing
That I have always been wholly divine.