This month's Red Tent had a small group, which came as no surprise. December always brings with it so many challenges. The pressure and expectations from friends and family, not to mention the actual days being shorter. The lack of daylight has us often left facing our inner shadows more than we would like, with the added stresses of holiday celebrations and parties. More often than not,it is the women who continually self sacrifice to make the holidays special for their loved ones. Quite often their efforts go unnoticed and unappreciated.
This year, I have been working more and have been SO fortunate that my husband has really stepped up to fill in the gaps. I normally go crazy with baking and decorating, not this year! I have been feeling quite reflective and contemplative recently. I am attributing it to seeing the finish line of 2015 nearing. I have also decided that just because we do something one year, doesn't mean we need to become trapped by it and feel obligated to continue in subsequent years.
It has been a big year for me, and honestly one I still haven't fully realized or assimilated the extent of my personal growth and expansion. My words or mantras for 2015 were inspiration and possibilities. It was such a year of unquenchable inspiration and countless possibilities.
As I begin to take my offerings a bit more serious, and continue to work on valuing myself more, I have been left wondering how do I simplify things and bring more focus for myself to live a life filled with joy and ease. The words clarity and simplicity came to me. I desire to give back more, have a bigger impact, and in order to do that I need to get crystal clear on some of my offerings and simplify.
Simplicity is a difficult task for my undying creativity, I seem to have countless ideas and endless possibilities flowing to me at any given time. It's important to give myself permission to allow things to go. Release that which no longer serves my highest calling, so that I can make room for that which does, creating space to expand on an area I wouldn't have been able to by clutching so desperately to something that I feel obligated to because I feel I SHOULD do this, that, or the other thing because I think people expect that of me. And if I am being totally honest, I want to do ALL of the things, so it's really about my expectations of myself and, in that, not wanting to let people down!! Once again, my ego is playing King Joffre with it's antics of the perpetual back and forth of constant 'shoulds' and doubt, never satiated.
With December being our darkest month in the northern hemisphere, I am looking forward to winter solstice and the return of the light. At the January Red Tent, I plan to celebrate each woman's light and magnificence. I hope we can collectively check our egos and together express our joy for all we have endured, accomplished, and overcome in 2015!
Cheers to clarity and simplicity!
I would love to hear from you what you are hoping to create for yourself in 2016. Do you have a ritual, mantra, affirmation, or quote you plan on using to empower your deep rooted desires?
Much Love and Gratitude,