With eclipse season fast approaching, it's so fitting that I am blogging about release, especially as it transpires at each and every Red Tent. Women gather, we shed layers, we transmute, connect, and fill our cups for the month ahead.
February was, to be totally honest, awful! It brought up so much emotional crap, so much stuff that I thought I had already dealt with. The kids and I were in a state of perpetual sickness. I ended up with bronchitis. I tried every trick and home remedy, I visited the local homeopath four times in under a week.... I finally had to succumb to seeing a "real" doctor.
I am sure that some of you are thinking I am nuts for not going to see a doctor sooner. I have next to no trust in the medical system. It is the root cause of my PTSD. I have had more than one encounter with our medical system that nearly cost my life and it's left me jaded. It was an extremely difficult thing to do, reach out to an institution that has harmed me in the past and be willing to trust and receive the treatment that was offered. For the record, I agreed to all that the doctor suggested and am finally on the mend.
The nuggets of wisdom I am unearthing, now that I am coming out the other side, is an awareness to start becoming more open to the western medical system again. I swayed far into alternative healing modalities when the medical system failed me and I haven't ventured back, except in times of desperation or emergency. It is time I began building trust and rapport with a physician that can provide knowledge and informed consent, while respecting my ability to make the decisions that feel aligned for me.
Another insight that was bestowed upon me during my sickness was receptivity. I was FORCED to ask for and accept help, not something I am overly comfortable with. Receptivity is something I have been consciously working on and, WOW, did I ever get schooled! I had to release many ideas, commitments, and projects, which included cancelling the spring session of the Sacred Feminine Circle.
On the very day I decided to let go of the Sacred Feminine Circle, I was given so many unexpected and beautiful gifts from amazing soul sisters!!! An gorgeous tarot card tray from Stone and Violet, a very symbolic card with an Elk on it, strands of gemstone beads, a chakra pen, and my friend coined me her "crystal mentor". I had a friend bring me delicious homemade soup. The synchronicities piled up and I am still receiving gentle nudges, messages, and symbols from the higher realms.
Isn't it interesting how we cling to something because we are SO afraid to release it for fear of being left with nothing?!! This experience has proven to me that by letting go of something that I love dearly, I made room for so much MORE. I am so grateful, humbled, and in total awe!!! By putting myself and health first (albeit I didn't do it gently), I was rewarded in the most bizarre, coincidental, and unexpected ways.
I continue to be floored by the huge waves of inspiration, creativity, ideas, and divine downloads that I am receiving. I can't help but think that my bout of bronchitis was divinely orchestrated and that I am being nudged towards incorporating something new. I am working on a few new offerings, some of which will be FREE to those on my email list.
I am stepping into embodying myself more fully and incorporating some of my greatest loves, I am adding fun new content into my newsletters and will be syncing them with the moon cycles. One on new moon and one on full moon. They will include an Oracle card and crystal reading.
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I would be so honored to share my insights with you <3