When I decided to start hosting Red Tent events, I had a vision of encompassing community and support, in all areas of women's lives. For me this includes mental, emotional, spiritual, and business. I was so blessed that my friend, Tracy McArthur, agreed with my vision and also volunteered to come speak on boundaries, sharing her gifts with the circle.
Tracy helped me to realize that I had some pretty skewed beliefs surrounding what I thought boundaries were. This led me to discover why boundaries have always been a struggle for me. In the past, I have always sacrificed my own boundaries for other people, as I didn't want them to feel hurt, or disappointed, or angry. This approach left me feeling drained, resentful, and frankly, pissed off. Also, being a recovering people pleaser, my ego likes to be needed, but it's ridiculously picky in that it only wants to be needed a little bit, not too much!! There's no way to fulfill my ego, it's totally unreasonable and unbelievably high maintenance, just like Prince Joffre, in Game of Thrones! And we all know how that turned out!!
I found the exercise and questions Tracy provided, very helpful and SO empowering. I have been able to start letting go of past hurts and disappointments,. This has really allowed me to reflect and take more responsibility of my role in some challenging situations. I have also become aware that these tendencies have truly withheld me from fulfilling my personal goals of allowing and receiving this year.
I have taken numerous courses, some of which include: level one cranialsacral therapy with the Upledger institute, Balance Within Practitioner training, and crystal healing certification with the Modern Mystery School. I kept telling myself that once I completed this course or that course, that I would be 'enough' or have 'enough' to move forward. Really, it just all boils down to me not embodying self worth and confidence. It's funny how the things that intimidate or scare us the most are probably the things we NEED to be doing more of.
I have been feeling called to offer more one on one work for clients the last couple of months. I have held back, as I know I struggle with healthy, clear boundaries. After the Red Tent with Tracy, I feel I am now ready to shed old patterns and beliefs, and move forward with solidity and confidence. I also need to scale back on some of the workshops I have been hosting, it's been quite a season of transition and change for our family. My kids are missing me.
My dad is one of my biggest supporters. Anytime I have taken a new course or workshop, he's the first to line up for me to practice on. He responds so well. His enthusiasm and belief in my abilities makes him so open and receptive, and also gives him really great results!! Again, the willing participant is part of the package, but for me it's owning what I have to offer with sureness and confidence. Part of me stepping into an empowered state with what I have to offer, is declaring it in this blog post, deep breaths!!
So, if you're thinking you'd like to experience a meld of all that I have to offer, which may include some ritualism, energy work, cranial sacral therapy, and crystals, feel free to email me!!
I also highly recommend connecting with Tracy McArthur. She offers a mix of coaching and energy sessions. Tracy really supports her clients in shifting and releasing of old patterns and programming, please visit her website at www.tracyjoy.ca